OMG !!!!!!

I'm getting crazy all over the enrolment things!! its so complicated .

i need HELP !!!

The fee isnt cheap at all !!

How am i going to afford it and fort out such a huge amount out of blue ??

Guess i had to work like hell so to at least minimize the gap of spend this month by a little ...

Seriously i wish i am still in secondary scl .

i am getting crazy over everything ...

Before scl is the fee , After scl start is the studies ! Adult life seem to approach me rapidly without warning . that's actually scary .

Now i had just walked out of the lala land and into the realreal land ?!

I swear i am so going to study real hard and improve my English language and jump to my favourite course nest year so at least i knew i am not wasting money to study a course i'm not interested in !!

So ... After so long since i last posted .
Now eveything had changed .
Iam posted to poly , graduated from secondary scl and working already .
Wow time really fly . And in a super speed .

please let me die ............ please leet me die i beg you .....
i want to die ..............................................................................i don;t want to be in this world anymore .... i am sick of it ..... seriously sick of it ......................................sick of explaining ..sick of being look down by my own brother ... a person that is so smart so perfect ... someone who i am proud of ... but ... why must him treat me that way ....why ? what i had done ..i just want someone to love me as who i am ...not what i do ...................why

I wish that i am died ....
i wish that i was never born ..... that i will be died by now ....
i want to die ... please let me die ...
i beg you god ... let me die ...........................
let me die .....

I think i am in love with someone .....
Went out with him today ...
Don't know why he doesnt sound intersted in me ..
of course he won;t ..
i am totally imperfect ...

Just Simply hate my life .....
Don't know why but i really hate my parent..
they always won't think for me de ...
i had been asking for that I PHONE for dnt knw hw long le
they fucking give it to my brother
should be my turn to get the phone de leh !!!!!
it should be my turn de leh
......
they say they want to buy it for me de
they say it !!!
fuck them lar
i say i want to buy a i touch only !!
they say no money ????
then brother say want iphone
jibai buy it for him !!!!!
how i wish i could get the i phone !!!!
fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

Celebrated birthday with yunru ^^ haha we went really crazy yesterday .
lazy to decribe out every single detial .. lets enjoy the photo ^^
ANYWAY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HONEY